New year, new beginnings...

2011 didn't end the way I had planned. Sure, we had a "nice" Christmas since we have a super fun and bubbly 2 1/2 year old. But it wasn't the same. We lost my Uncle Fred on December 23 to heart failure possibly from an unknown hernia that may have put toxins in his blood stream. It was sudden and it was shocking. It was so hard to see my Aunt Georgine the next day when it is supposed to be the happiest time of the year. And knowing her pain had only begun made it worse. I never thought I'd take losing my uncle so hard-but he's been around me my entire life. He was the best husband for my aunt-he was a great brother in law to my parents. It still breaks my heart.

A week later we lost Sean's grandma. We had time to know it was coming but it was fast nonetheless. She was 90 and we could all tell she "wanted to go" so to speak. So her funeral was different. There was a full life to be celebrated even though of course it's always sad to lose something so important in the family.

Oh, then the rat...yes, a rat in our home. Long story short he/she snuck in our home and took over our life. Seriously. I was 8 months pregnant and nesting and all I wanted was to be home but we luckily had a clean place to stay-Sean's parents' home in Arcadia. So that was rough waiting for it to be caught, then having to practically sterilize our entire home after.

So here we are, 2012 and even though it didn't start out as I wanted, I have hope for a better year. Pretty soon we will welcome baby Brayden into our family. I pray and claim his safe delivery and perfect health. I look forward to celebrating my sweet Matthew turning 3! (Cannot.believe.it). I look forward to the spring and all the renewal that comes with it. I am excited to have my boys and have my full family. I am also really looking forward to exercising again and getting back to dance. :)

So here I am, 35 weeks pregnant and getting more tired everyday. Oh, this is just the beginning! :)